Go big or go home…

So because I’m not busy enough running my own business, working part-time, travelling the globe and spending quality time with my friends and fam, I’ve decided to co-chair this year’s Ovarian Cancer Canada Walk of Hope in my hometown with my bff Mrs. C. It’s funny how we can think we’re SO busy all the time, but the reality is that if we cut the fat from our lives (TV, phone usage. computer, etc.) we can find A LOT of spare time to do meaningful things!

My life has been touched by cancer, and the lives of many people I know and love have been touched by this disease as well. While I was away camping this weekend my friends and I found out that an old university friend who we had traveled with, and spent a ton of time with, has been diagnosed with an inoperable stage 4 brain tumour. The stark reality of her prognosis is so sobering. She is fighting, and participating in experimental treatments, but to see someone so young and vibrant struck down by this terrible disease is a reality check of our true vulnerability in life. Cancer does not discriminate, and it affects so many women around the world in so many different ways.

Taking on the co-chair role with Ovarian Cancer Canada is my chance to have a small voice in the fight against women’s cancers, and to spread awareness about the importance of regular check-ups with your doctor for early detection. We are going to put together the most amazing event to celebrate survivors, family members, and those who have been lost too soon. I’m so looking forward to this amazing collaboration, and will surely have lots to update you all on throughout the process! Another first for me, and a very important one at that.

If you’re interested in volunteering, participating or sponsorship, please click here or email me! We’d love to have you on board for this great adventure! XO

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When your head says yes, but your body says no…

It’s been a rough night…or maybe day…but all I know is that I’m freaking exhausted as I write this, but wanted to get it out tonight while I was feeling all feeling-y. Aren’t you all so lucky?!

Tonight was my last dance class with The Academy of All Things Awesome for awhile…they’re taking a break for the summer, which means I’ll be taking a break from my new favourite past time…boo. I was SO pumped for this class…What’s Your Fantasy by Ludacris, a classic with an awesome beat and our choreographer Josh is a rock star. So like, what could go wrong, right?! Uggggghhhhhh, stupid arthritis is what could go wrong.

I knew from the first few counts that I was going to be in trouble. I’d spent the day putting together Ikea furniture at my new place (seriously, sooooooo time-consuming and aggravating lol) so I was already super sore, and as soon as I saw there was floor work in the routine, I knew it was all over. I know there are SO many worse things in the world, don’t get me wrong, but it’s a really frustrating thing when your mind and heart KNOW you can do something, but your body doesn’t let you. It can feel like being trapped in a body that’s not working the way it should, or you know it could. Anyways, I kept pushing myself through the pain until my knee actually gave out on me and I fell…actually like slow motion crashed down in the middle of the routine in front of everyone…lols. Not only was I in physical pain, but my ego was seriously bruised and I was sooooooo SAD 😦

It was the first time in awhile that I felt like I couldn’t do something. Like my disease was holding me back, and it sucked. I will pat myself on the back because I got up off the floor and did the routine again (YAY ME!), but I left feeling super bummed. I let myself have a pity party (and maaaaaaaybe a few tears) for like an hour, and then realized that I have too much to be grateful for to keep feeling sorry for myself. I can move, I can walk, I can get out of bed every morning, and I’ve found a way to do something I love again even if it means that I fall every once in awhile. Reminding myself of that was all it took to get out of my funky sad place, and elevate myself back into a positive mindset – the power of the mind is truly wicked.

So I decided to end the night by writing, so that I could sear into my brain that I need to choose happiness every day. Was tonight hard? Sure was! But there was awesomeness too! I had two friends come out to class tonight (one even brought her two sons!) because they’ve been seeing my dance videos on social media and were inspired to get out and move; I got up after falling and proved to myself that I can do anything if I try hard enough AND I built two pieces of Ikea furniture and installed an air conditioner…SO awesome, right?!

Always remember – everything is perfect, and just as it should be. Now, I’m going to bed grateful and with a full heart ❤ XO

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Moving up in my world…

So, very exciting news this week – I got a new house!! You already know that I sold the house I owned with my ex earlier this month, and I felt like it was time to put down some roots and get myself an actual home. I feel like I’ve been in transition with my housing situation for years. My ex and I moved in together after dating for two months back in 2009, and lived in a cute 2 bedroom apartment for a year before buying our place in an up and coming neighbourhood with big plans to renovate it. We lived there for a few years, but when I was diagnosed with psoriatic arthritis in 2012, we moved in with my parents so that there would be more help for me in dealing with the challenges that came with this new diagnosis. We stayed there for over two years before we split, and I moved into a transition apartment in the attic of an old Victorian home, while he moved back into our house to finish the renovations so we could finally sell it 🙂 As you can see, I’ve basically been house-hopping for 7 years!

I don’t think I realized until this week when I got my keys just how much I’ve been wanting a place to call a home. A place that I can decorate, and make my own, and make new memories in. There’s something about a fresh start that doesn’t seem quite as fresh if you don’t wipe that entire slate clean, and I’ve got me a brand new slate on my hands!

This adventure is made even more fun and exciting because it’s the first time I’ll really be living on my own! Like, without a bunch of other units in the same building as me that is 😉 I’ve been trying new things all year, and this marks probably my biggest accomplishment to date, because it’s the one that scares me the most. If there’s one thing I know for sure, it’s that when it scares me A LOT, it’s always TOTALLY worth doing!

So move in date has come and gone! I’ll transition into my new place over the next month (I like to roll into change sloooooowly lol) but in the meantime, check out this crazy amazing view from my back porch!! My besties and I enjoyed not only a beautiful sunset to commemorate my first night in my new place, but we also got to kick it to an amazing Canada Day fireworks show in my front yard aka the Bayfront 🙂